The worst thing about a three day weekend is Tuesday morning, when there's an extra day's worth of stuff waiting for me to do when I get to work. I had every intention of not smoking at work this week but that flew right out the window. I have a large weight of crap that has nothing to do with my job weighing on my mind, crap that I need to talk to someone about. Crap that I need to get out of my head.
It's really making me miss my friend Bart, who left for a new job in Atlanta about a month ago. He was my go-to work buddy for sage advice. I'm the type who needs to hash things out. I need to list them, bounce them off someone. Bart was one who let me bounce all sorts of things. He'd give advice, or he'd just listen and let me get my stuff straight myself. I desperately need that right now.
I guess I can put it all on a list, just to see if I can make sense of it on my own. I'm pretty sure what the end result is going to be. My problem is figuring out how to not self-destruct between where I am now and the end. Or more correctly: figuring out how to not change the path from here to there so much that I don't ever get there. Ugh. It's too much, right now. Too much.
It was a good weekend, in all. The end of it was a bit rough, but that's par for the course lately. There's an awful lot of big, scary stuff happening and it's all more than a little overwhelming. It's very tempting to go sit in a quiet corner and hide until it's all over. I wonder if I have it in me to do that?
So my weekend.... I spent some good one-on-one time with my girl. I talked to Mouse for a while on the phone (got your number now - you'll never be safe again!). I spent some time with my guy and his girls. I drank coffee and beer and ate good food. All in all, it was a win. Now I'm looking forward to what comes with this week. And I'm hoping I'll still be whole and as happy as I can be at the end of it.
This song was just playing on my iTunes and it suits how I'm feeling. Cool? I think so.
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