Mr. Man is learning Powershell (YAY, him!) I suppose that means he'll need me less now since he'll be able to write his own scripts. Which, just possibly, isn't a bad thing. Even Bieber loves it!
But meanwhile... things are changing again. I'm not fighting it this time because I'm learning through experience that the changes we go through seem to come out alright. So far, I've seen something changing and fought against it in the theory that I'm happy now so change can't be good. But it seems that my happiness is more and deeper than a given schedule or set of circumstances. I'm learning to be calmed and comforted by this man that loves me, and this love that we share. We'll get through this like we get through everything and our relationship will continue as strongly as ever, perhaps even stronger.
The girl is down visiting for a few days. Having her at our house gives me some freedom to spend time with Mr. Man and not be at home keeping the eagle eye on the boy and his friends. I'm trying to look at this as an opportunity for the boy and I - I will expect more from him and he will do more so that he can make me proud. Or he won't do more and I will tie him up and put him in a closet. It's totally up to him.
I'm hoping my rediscovery of yoga will help me to stay calm when I'm dealing with all this. And I'm hoping the promise of a well-stocked pantry will be incentive enough for my kitchen to be kept clean, my living room to be dusted, and the trash to be taken out. Well that and not breaking my rules (of which there are few, but because there are less I give them much greater weight). Plus there's the whole closet thing as a backup plan. Just sayin.
As always, there's about a ton of stuff happening. Here's a brief summary: Meeting BBE at a shop at lunchtime so he can get a front end alignment, dropping him at work, going back to work myself. Brewing beer tonight (that kitchen had better be clean when we get there). AWS tomorrow and a lunch date with my sweetie, then going to Chestertown after work and stopping at the Panera in Easton on the way back for our monthly date. Side work for him and smoking cessation group for me on Thursday after work. Friday he gets his kids and I start on weekly laundry and house cleaning. Saturday I have to drop the boy off at a friend's to help her move then figure out something to do with his girls, since he's working all day.
Of course there's other stuff strung all through this, too. I mean that's just the outside of work stuff, and just the me-and-him stuff. I also need to write about 40 more test cases for the delivered desktop project, plus I don't know how many for the Orion project, schedule a server change in one of the plants, take a phone charger up to my sister and visit with my parents while I'm there, get the boy working on his practice tests for his learner's permit, pay bills, and study for my next test.
I asked the BBE last night to tell me everything is okay and it won't be like this forever (which is something I usually find myself telling him). He said, "Someday, it won't be like this." Right now that's good enough. I am feeling a little bit overwhelmed, but I know myself well enough to know that I can do this. I am far from lazy and function pretty well under stress. Add in quitting smoking tomorrow, though, and God alone knows what's going to happen! People tied up in closets will be the least of it. :)
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